Love

I want you. I need you. I love you. How
much more plain
can it be? Elegance
borne of simplicity . . . Truth in a brown
paper
bag. Unadorned. Stationary.
And from these plain words, Love, what can we
build?
Perhaps a home filled with laughter and love?

-David M Pitchford

There is this guy, whom I loved last year around this time, who suddenly seemed to come back into my life. I don’t know how to explain my feelings towards him anymore but my heart seems to turn into a total wreck when I think about him. He has gone off to war like the idiot I think he is. He has a smile and a laughter that makes me all crazy and weird. I thought I got over him like I did with all my other past loves but in truth I haven’t.

Why did he have to come back now? I have finally moved on and then there you are out of my reach yet again making me want to grow up fast and become a woman now. But I can’t. And I know I can’t and that’s the thing that sucks. I have to take my time and get over the little things and focus only on the big goals that I have set for myself. I can’t force myself to become a grown woman and skipping all the steps of growing up.

But I couldn’t say that to him. Instead I acted like I didn’t care about him or how he was or what he had been doing or, or, or anything. I feel like crying when I think about him. How can I express my words when all he say’s is “Oh me and my girlfriend are having problems.” I being to feel like shit when I already knew you where going out with her and I knew how much he loves her and UGH.

Topic is now being dropped now. Emotional over load WILL lead to tears and I have been crying A LOT. Well not really that is a lie really. I have only been crying over spilt milk. Wahahaha someone had better call the wambulance I have become a whiner.

Anyway, getting hit by a car sucks. I mean me getting hit by a car sucks. Really it does. I mean WTF? Why wasn’t I looking before I crossed the street or why didn’t this driver stop BEFORE she hit me? I mean she could have yelled and screamed at me for being in the way but why not stop the car first?

I still am VERY freaked out about that. And it seems like people today can’t drive a car without texting or having some sort of distraction. God I mean really distractions in a car are NOT good. So please pay attention or people like me might get hurt.

Anyway time to discuss the quote! The quote comes from a guy named David from his own poetry blog! Just click his name since I am far to lazy to copy and re-paste it down here. I found him some-what randomly and began reading his stuff. I took half of one of his poems and made it my quote. I did say I was doing it before I posted it plus it is totally as long as he knows and it says his name, giving him the credit for it. Cause it IS his work! See how good of a human being I am? :]

I love the last two questions.

And from these plain words, Love, what can we build?
Perhaps a home filled with laughter and love?

It makes me think of every guy I have ever dated in my life, which happens to be ALOT. And it makes me think of everything I ever asked from them. I asked every guy I have been with the first question. What can we build? What can we build with our love? Are we going to have kids? A home somewhere? Are we going to be filled from our head to our toes with love? Are we? Are you really ready for this?

I am that kind of girl where all I want for a relationship is that it be a very long one, filled with love and happiness and everything that is needed to make it work. But doesn't everybody want that? I wander.. I personally would love to have that. LOVE. Such a beautiful thing.

Anyway that's all for today.

See you next time,

The 'It' Girl