He's moved on.

I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

-Adele

Who moved on? That guy whom you where always in love with did. Mine finally told me he "moved on". And it hurts more than I realized. Today sitting in my class it finally sunk in when I tried to text him, it didn't even go through, that it was really truly over between us. He's moving on... That scary thought filled my head and well guys I won't lie I did start to tear up and my breathing did begin to become a bit ragged. It hurts a lot. Which brings me to the quote, turns out he is seeing a new girl and has become more committed to another girl and further from me.

I childishly yearn to be able to tell him that he isn't allowed to move on and that he is just mine but I know that even if I love him we are over. And that is something I must realize. Through all this pain and suffering I must realize that I fucked up when I was that age and that I have no right to even be allowed to love him as much as I do. Hell my love can only be described as a burning flame, which can be warm and at the same time burn every part of my heart till I just want to curl up and cry.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

-Adele

Really who would have known that love could feel like this? It is so burning and painful I can help but want to not breathe in this love I feel and felt for him. I want to move on but with every guy I truly love I give them a piece of me and I gave him the biggest chunk. He was the first guy I ever fell for with true naivety. He was the first man who truly touched me with his love and he has been the only man who left him mark upon my heart and my very soul.

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me, I begged

-Adele

I just want him to know that I don't want to be forgotten even if he moves on even if he is happy even if he achieves his dreams. I don't want him to forget the pain he has put me through and at the same time I want him to become all he can be. I lack the word that can describe it. This feeling of loathing that he is happy and has just forgotten all the pain he has inflicted on my younger self. I wouldn't want anyone to feel the emotional down I had after being heartbroken like that. And as I am typing this the tears are there... I just don't want to be sad anymore. I want to be done with all these tears of sorrow and move on.

Please don't forget me.